"Go Where The Puck's Gonna Be"

I have this tendency to sit here and write the same blog post over again. I think alot of people do that. Some are on purpose (themed blogs where you have to find a tie in no matter the topic) but those are usually the big time ones where even though it ends the same way, the story is so good that it never matters. I've never been that good.

For me my blog has become a countdown to my 30th birthday. Nothing wrong with that. I have some awesome blog ideas coming soon in the next week or two. But a few things in the last 48 hours have become totally clear.

(The next couple of things are in here despite Mandy getting sick of my obsessions lately. Just saying.)

First of all, there's a phrase that I've really been trying to get to the true meaning of. "Keep your head up and never chase the puck; go where the puck’s gonna be." Kevin Smith got that from Walter Gretsky and turned it into his mantra. That quote is on my facebook page at the end of a paragraph about the greatness of hockey compared to real life. But to honest I never really looked into the words. Till I actually heard it fully explained by Kevin himself last night.

Now it makes sense. It's not about hockey. It's about life. The way to truly enjoy life. Not just looking at what you've done, look at what you CAN do. Don't sit and say "I don't know if I should do this" and just doing it. Instead of saying, "I want to be" something, just being that person.

Honestly my dreams and what I wanted to be got really shuffled over the years. Over the last six years all my personal dreams came true. I am a husband, a loving one. Do I make mistakes? Yes. Are the perfect couple in other people's eyes? Not really. But for me, she is perfect for me. I am a father, and while we have tempers that clash, I know I'm doing something right. I actually have TWO families that love me and I love them.

But whenever I am what I want to be as far as a career, I don't have an answer anymore. I have been an airport employee for so long, that when that comes to an end, I'm not sure where to go. I have a degree yes but the issue is I don't have the dreams anymore like, "I want to be a web designer" or "I want to be an editor". I kinda just want to make a living and have time for my family.

Maybe at the end of the day, I just want to be a family man. I want to be involved, I want to be there, as often as possible. I actually like this side of the world. I like the fact that I have time for my family.

My other thing lately has been the words "Seize The Day". That song has been a personal favorite for twenty years. Three simple words that when you say them they are very cliche. You are absolutely right.

But think about it this way. What would life be like if you don't strive for those goals? Seize every moment that you have.

I'm going to be 30 and for the last five years I've been trying to tie all the loose ends of my life together. I don't want regrets and issues to haunt me anymore.

So then I could look ahead and seize every oppurnity that is in front of me. Maybe a new job, maybe yet another hockey game, maybe just going out on a date with the most beautiful woman in the world.

The moments might since small and insuffient to everyone else but to me they are HUGE.

That brings to one other thing. Something I'm still learning, especially dealing with CJ's tantrums. If something is small to you, it may not be to someone else.

Even if you are so sick of hearing about it, talking about it, seeing pictures of it or even seeing tweets about it. Sometimes it's little things that helps get through the day.

For me today, Disney made me day by announcing the Newsies Broadway soundtrack is available for preorder. In addition I've been able to listen to two songs in full from the show. That kind of obsession sounds crazy to just about everyone, I'm aware of that. I'm actually surprised I haven't got more harrassed for all my Newsies stuff on fb lately. But it makes me happy at the end of the day and that's all that matters to me.

Where was I going with all this?

Oh yeah now I remember.

Life is short, enjoy it. Seize every moment you have in front of you. Never let anyone put you down, even if they want to. Always do what your heart tells you, esepcially when you have someone who inspires you by your side.

Oh one more thing.

Life happens. When you start concentrating on your current life and doing something with it, people start to get ignored, or it seems like they are just completely out of your life. Well even in the internet era, this happpens. I have alot of friends in Jersey who I barely talk to anymore. As a matter of fact, one just got married over the weekend (Congrats Cira!). Lately I've come to conclusion that it's all part of this thing called life. If you have true friends, they don't go away. If you have true friends, they are there when you are in town to offer a ride, or take a couple of hours out of their lives to go out to dinner. Those are the people that matter. At the end of the day those are the people who never go away. I'm lucky I've got a bunch of those. Most aren't as lucky as me. That being said, when they need me, I'll be here for them as well. We don't have to talk every day, every week, or even every month. But what matters is those times I did talk to them, catch up on life, see how things are. As much as knowing everything about everyone on fb is great, sometimes, most times, those long friend talks are BY FAR the best things in the world.

I think I'm done now.

"Minute by minute, that's how you win it. We will find our way. But let us seize the day."-Newsies (Broadway)