A Letter to My F9 Friends

I've been quiet on here about work stuff. Mainly because when the Frontier new broke two weeks ago, I was in shock, angry and sad. With all the emotions that were going through my head there was no way I could write a clearheaded post.

That being said, this isn't just a post about work, this is a letter to my fellow rampers and co-workers reading this.

April 16th. it feels like D-Day. The end of the line. The day that everything changes. Alot of people will, or will have already, be leaving. It's a rough and it will honestly be extremely sad. but that's not till Aprl. There's the whole month of March.

March is a big month for us as rampers and F9 employees. We have all been working together for four+ years.We've been together through everything, personal & professional, and just about every weather condition you can think of.

That being said, let's go out on a high note. Let's do our jobs, to the best of our abilities, be there for each other. Also remember one thing that has always been true. At the end of the day, it's never been about what our name was/is, who owns us or even who pays us. It's always been about the employees, the friendships and the relationships.

When my time as a Frontier ramper does come to an end I want to leave with great memories, not with the shitty attitudes at the people that got cut the last time.

Our time together will end soon, but that doesn't mean the memories and good times will ever be erased.

Healthy Path Through Lent

Yesterday was Ash Wednesday, as most know, and the theme on facebook and twitter was giving up something. Some were joking around, some were a little nuts, some were just didn't care.

Well for me, with Puzzle Busters last night, I didn't have time to sit and think what I would "give up". Problem is that I have no major vices. I've been more laid back when it comes to just about everything. There's nothing that I could think of "giving up" that would really affect or change me.

So then I thought this morning about something that I remember hearing when I was in Catholic school when I was younger; Lent isn't about just giving up something up just because, it's about sacrificing to help yourself in the eyes of God.

That being said I'm going to "give up" not taking care about of myself. Meaning no more snacking with no purpose, skipping workouts, even taking care of my dental issues. I've gotten lazy, too lazy.

So now that the craziness of the last two weeks is over, it's time to get serious about stuff again.

Break from the action....

Hello everyone,

It's early on a Sunday morning. CJ is playing with Papi and I don't have to get ready for work for a little while so I figured I'd check in.

I must admit I don't remember a time in recent memory that I've been so busy. There really hasn't been much of a dull moment over the last two weeks.

So far, two Admirals game, me and Mandy's anniversary, doctor's appts, v-day, meetings at school (both positive) and Mandy was on the Morning Blend. (If you didn't know that already lol) All the while work has been hell (rant for another blog) and I'm looking for a new job before April.

It's funny because today in Hockey Day in America, the Devils are in the "main event prime time spot" and I MIGHT see the third period because we have a birthday party to goto today for one of Cristian's friends.

Trust me, I'm not complaining at all. I'll probably have an entry with a photo look at this month. It will show how busy we've been.

I will admit I'm looking forward to Wednesday night. After months of planning and getting things in order, it is the first meeting of The Puzzle Busters. So on top of stuff at church and normal routine, going to be spending the next 48 hours getting stuff together for that big night.

Oh also on the parent front, apprently as of Thursday, I'm a member of the Penfield parent advisory group. Being apart of that will be good for Cristian overtime. Especially since they have been taking care of him so much since he started going there.

So life is good, in most fronts. I'm even getting along with my family, especially my sister again. For those who know the history behind that, I'm not going to go back into it, but that's definately a good thing!

That being said, time to get ready for another busy day. Another busy week.

Hopefully soon I have to time to write in here more often and in my secondary blog. I do have alot to talk and vent about, just don't have time to sit here and type it out.

Oh before I go, two quick TV special notes for those who like fun stuff. VH1, if you didn't see it yet, has been airing a Rock Doc The TRL Decade and it's a great watch, especially if you grew up watching TRL like me and Mandy did. And also for the parents reading this, especially Disney parents, if you didn't watch it yet, Disney Junior aired Jake and the Neverland Pirates: Peter Pan Returns this week, and I've never seen Cristian actually sit and stand still for a hour show like that before. Especially more than once.

That's it from me. =)

A Busy Life

I keep saying "I have to get back to the gym." There always seems to be a problem with that.

Ever since I went part time I tried to get a schedule together. Goto work, goto the gym, get home and do a whole bunch of stuff around the house. Monday and Friday no workouts, those would be heavy cleaning and laundry days. Well that was before winter hit.

Yeah winter has been very tame. But that's not what's keeping me. I always seem to have something to do. Especially this week. I know there is so much going out the next week and a half and I want to be ready. Whether it's typing up a pre-written blog for Mandy to plug the Puzzle Busters in two weeks, or find stuff to get signed on Sunday at the Admirals wrestling night. There's so much to do to set up the next two weeks.

I come off as a lazy person because I'm not working out and whatnot or I'm posting alot of stuff online. Yesterday during the Giants parade was the first time I actually sat and did nothing while I was working on something.

Eventually when things get quieter I will be able to get a schedule back up and running.

A Wave of Giant Emotions

Last night, as everyone knows by now the Giants won the Super Bowl last night. For a fan like me, in Wisconsin as a Giants fan, it was weird to celebrate.

Back in 2008 when the Giants made the improbable dream come true and won Super Bowl XLII, I had flashes back to being in the living room with Grandpa watching Giants games on the living room every Sunday, road games of course, he worked all the home games. I really never got to celebrate Super bowl XXI and XXV because I was too young. But that night I have my family here around me, and despite beating the Packers two weeks earlier, the hatred of the Pats brought us all together. I got to celebrate and my emotions were in check because of that.

Last night was different. When the clock hit zero and the game was over, I was extremely emotional. I was by myself. CJ was in bed (passed out during the waining seconds of the 3rd quarter) and Mandy was busy doing a personal project of her own. So I was jumping up and down and when I hit the ground again I was in tears. Sights of Grandpa came rushing into my head. It was a moment I needed.

The first thing I did when it was over, before the trophy presentation even, was move my car onto the driveway. When I was doing that I blasted "New York, New York". Sinatra was needed at that moment.

What an emotional ride. One I hope I experience again one day. I needed that.

Thank you Grandpa. I love you.

Hello? Is anybody there? Does anybody care?

Maybe my mind is just playing tricks on me lately. Maybe it's because I've been in weird state of mind wth my 30th birthday around the corner. (I know age is just a number but it's still a number that freaks me a bit.)

Lately I've been either trying to get in touch with some old friends in my phone, some recent people whom I thought were real friends that I used to work with, or people who I've known for years in Jersey. At times I find myself texting them and then they don't answer at all. Or thinking "I haven't talked to said person in a long while" and then I goto text that person and I think "well maybe there's a reason they haven't tried to talk to me. Maybe they are too busy. Maybe I'm not worth talking to."

I know life makes things harder and friendships mostly suffer from that. (Hence the lack of friends I have around here.) I also know that very few people really want to put up with me having a ridiculous work schedule, time restricitions because I have stuff to do with Cristian. Someone at work said to me the other, for someone who only has a part time job, you're always saying you are busy. Maybe that's it. Maybe it's the fact that I don't update my fb or twitter as much as I used to so it seems like I'm too busy to talk.

I'm also getting sick of being the one that reaches out. I know everyone has lives. Jobs, planning weddings, kids, other plans. But real friendships are a two way street. Sometimes I just want someone to miss me. Sometimes I want to look at my phone and see a message from someone who I haven't heard from in a long time. Someone to ask what's wrong with me during the day when I post that I'm having a bad day. Someone to just check in.

Maybe I'm overthinking things. Maybe I'm just lonely. Maybe this is what is bothering me lately.

Maybe this is just life and I should just shutup and deal with it.

I'm just having my issues and I wanted to share some.

Yes I'm Here...

I've been quiet.

Very quiet.

Why?

Not too sure.

To be honest as busy as I've been there isn't much to truly talk about.

Just wanted to let people know that I'm still alive. Just been keeping a low profile and not talking to many people.

Hopefully in the next couple of weeks I will have more to say.