Seeking Perfection

Obviously I've been very lacking on blog posts ever since I shut down my pop culture blog in June. Honestly it's been a very busy summer. A summer that makes you think about life as well. It's been a summer of change.

(Maybe I've been watching too episodes of Scrubs lately and this entry to going to seem like something JD would say in a monolonge but just deal with it. It will have a vaild point.)

This summer has shown me alot about people and myself. Over the last few weeks I've been asked alot of questions that I didn't have immediate answers to. From my wife, my family, my friends, myself.

What kind of person am I becoming?

What happened to you?

Where did the romance go?

Why are you still working there?

Is this what life has become?

That last one is from me.

Today I was having a conversation with Mike (for those who don't know he's my best friend here in WI one of the few people I truly trust around here) and we were having a coversation about our lives. He recently (as recent as Monday) moved in with his girlfriend, me and Mandy have been dealing with alot of money issues and our new work bid came out yesterday. I came to a major realization today.

I've been doing this job for five and a half years. I've gone to and finished school. I've gotten married to the love of my life twice. I have an amazing three year old little boy. I'm actually happy. I'm in the best place of my life and all I can think about is the fact that I can't get off on Saturdays at work on this bid.

Wait a sec. What am I doin? Look at my life.

People search their whole lives for perfection in life. I don't believe that it's possible. Well I didn't. Until now.

Perfection is in the eye of the beholder. Is my life perfect? Maybe it is.

What problems do I really have?

Money. Well that's money. Everyone has money issues. That's part of life. If you don't have money problems in the middle class, you aren't living your life.

Friends. I've come to realize that my friends seem to fall into certain catergories. I just wish I knew who else fits in the "I've having a bad day I need a cheer up" catergory. That was seems to be lacking. But otherwise, I have great friends.

I heard that the future is what you make of it. That's so true. But a better quote is from Rock of Ages "

"Sometimes the dreams you come in with, may not be the dreams you leave with."

 

The dreams I had when I was out of high school are NOTHING compared to what my life is now. Maybe this where I'm meant to be.

 

What wrong with this life?

 

What wrong with this person that I've become?  Is there really anything wrong with it?

 

This is my life. And it's a damn good life.

 

It just took a long time to figure it all out.