It's April 19th. Yes that means tomorrow in my birthday. My 29th birthday to be exact. Since tomorrow I'm taking a complete day off from everything, work, my blogs and might even take a day off from being on my phone all day, I wanted to post today.
It's funny, I was asked the other day why I don't post in the blog that much, while my pop culture blog gets posted in just about everyday. Well there are two reasons for that. #1, my pop culture blog is surprising popular. I get alot of hits everyday on the topics I'm writing about so I try my best to keep with it, whether it be early in the morning before work, after work, during naps like today or anytime I have a chance when I'm by myself. #2, I've actually been trying to collect my thoughts on life. I talk to the people who matter to me and that's about it. It's like I felt with my livejournal, I stopped being personal with stuff.
Right now life is well life. Been busy with trying to be a good husband, the best father I can be and the best friend possible. Somedays I'm better at one than another. There are days where it all becomes too much for me to handle and I shutdown and just want to be alone.
This past year (4/20/10-4/19/11) has taught me alot of things about myself.
I have a different attitude at work than I ever had before, the don't let the stupid shit bother me attitude, do my job, chill with my friends and then come home to my family. It seems to give me a new lease on life there. It's refreshing. Work isn't a total drag anymore. Is it fun like it once was? No. But I'm trying to make it work so I can survive another year.
I'm learning day by day how to be a good father. With CJ's behavior problems and just the terrible twos, it's difficult not to scream and yell at him all the time everyday. I try not too. I don't mind being the bad cop and I still want him to respect me as his dad, but the same time I still want him to want to spend time with me, especially since I'm with him alot.
Mandy and I are where we needed to be a year ago. Are things perfect? No. But isn't that part of the challenge of any marraige? That's a challenge I can deal with.
I've also been in school this semester trying to finish up my degree with the portfolio class I failed. I'm so close to being done. It's right around the corner. I can smell it, taste it and I just want to be there and present so I can be done with school. The project has taken up alot of my brain power over the last two months, which is NOT a bad thing, it's just nice this week not to have to stress about it.
Other than all that, I'm just keeping busy. You can see that on fb. Life is not dull and never will be. Nor do I ever want it to be. How I see it, if life ever gets boring or dull, I must be dead. Boring is not in my vocabulary and never will be.
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