It's weird, I've never had this problem before. Normally I'm cheerful, happy and ready for the holidays. I'm blasting Christmas music all the time and just jolly, for lack for a better term.
But this year, I'm not feeling it. I don't know why. I'm not in the mood for Christmas at all. I mean I don't have the want to even finish my shopping, we still haven't decorated or anything. It's hard.
CJ is excited about Santa, and we are watching whatever specials are on the air. I even brought down my Mickey's Christmas Carol VHS to pop in. Still haven't.
Things just don't seem right. I'm not sure why.
Maybe it's real life finally sinking in. I don't have as much free time as I used to to work on a big project for Mandy that I have visualized. I don't have the energy to even do more. I want more time. I want to have the time to do stuff that I usually do.
I don't know. I have to adjust I guess. I need to get it into gear and fast. It's December 9th. Already. 16 days till Christmas. So much going on. So much to do.
Maybe someone can help me. Someone. Anyone. I need the boost. The Christmas magic. That passion I've had for years. The man in this picture. Life is so great, why can't I feel the spirit this year?